I’m going to write somewhat of a descriptive story on here, kind of get it off my chest. I don’t really care if anyone reads it, or if they have something to say after reading it, but feel free to.
I want to start off by saying that I’m not really the type of guy that falls for a girl easily. To be honest for the past 2 years or so I’ve been kind of close-minded on the idea of a relationship at all. And I’m not gonna say that I didn’t respect women, but I wasn’t really about getting to know them, I was just about trying to have physical relations with them. And then lately I’ve just kind of feeling empty without any type of connection to a significant other, I have been single for about 4 years now and I thought it was time to try and give something a try. So without going forward with the intention of finding someone. this someone sort of found me. Honestly she found me on instagram, liked one of my photos. I liked one back, we sparked up a conversation and boom. Now we never met, but we live in the same city so it was easy to connect. So basically out of spark, I kind of just decided to ask her if she’d like to go out you know? since I said yeah I’ll give it a try with something different. she ended up saying yes. so basically first date type scenario. I picked her up, and right away we started hitting it off. I felt comfortable for some reason. we ended up going to eat food, and I have to say it was a great time. Honestly the most fun I’ve had with a girl in a long time. so we immediately decided we had to see each other again. it just kept progressing. went on a couple more dates and it started getting good. Now the whole idea of us liking each other finally came up, so I felt it was time to discuss a couple things. I told her straight out that, I’m not a person that likes to waste my time when it comes to something like this, and I feel like I genuinely like her. so i wanted to know what page she was on, so we can continue forward? or kind of just keep it there as a friendship, rather then lead it on. And she seemed ecstatic about it. she was like yes I like you too, I’m on the same page. So I was like cool this is turning into something. So trying to keep it as short as possible, we moved forward. now I bought tickets to go see Dom Kennedy, which is her favorite artist. I wanted to surprise her. Idk why, but for some reason I kind of just had this feeling that’d be a good day to make her my girlfriend. now rewind for a second. the weekend before that show, she was talking to me how she was usually, and we were supposed to hangout that Saturday. then she kind of stopped replying for a bit, and out of nowhere she sent me a picture flipping me off. so I was like okay? but didn’t really think anything of it. lol but now fast forward, I ended up going to a party that night, and I swear as soon as I get there, that’s the first person I see. and you know, when you like someone, you get excited about seeing them right? like say hi at least? but she looked straight at me and looked away and left. that bothered me, but i just wanted to brush it off. but my friend was kind of hyping me up to say something to her so I did. I went up to her and was like that? okay cool. lol I felt kind of dumb for doing that afterwards but whatever. Now I said time to go inside the party and have fun. started having a couple drinks you know. she ended up coming back inside, but still not talk to me. so I was up to the point were I was like, okay I’m going to go try saying something to her. I went up to her and she kind of just gave me the hold on motion. That kind of hit me like damn, okay. so I went to leave the party and yeah out of frustration, and a little intoxication, I hit some cups off of one of the tables at the party. now out of nowhere this guy says something to me and is you know, stirring up a problem for no apparent reason. he got in my face. Already being kind of riled up, and being the type of person that doesn’t take anything from anyone…I hit him in the face. Now it wasn’t my hardest hit, it was just to put him in check and back off. he fell to the floor, and I could of kept hitting him but I didn’t. I just wanted to leave. So me and the friends I came with are walking to my car when a mob of people come after us. all these friends and whatnot of the guy I hit are trying to fight us, it escalates and we end up fighting a couple of them, just so we didn’t get jumped. Now after this I go home and the only thing on my mind is her. Still I am dumb enough to call her and try and say something. I call and she is hanging out with who I fought, and rather then talk to her she hands the phone to them and they’re just talking shit. Now I took a step back and realized, okay I’m just going to be mature and forget about it, all of it. even her. whatever things happen. She made me feel stupid and the next day she didn’t even bother reaching out to me. So I was over even talking to her. But sure enough there was just some of me that was like, I don’t want to go out like that. I gave it to the next day and still nothing. so i decided to call her, she answered. I said so is it worth my time to ask to talk to you about things? she said yes. so I told her we should meet up in person. the next day since our work schedules were conflicting that day. she agreed. Next day came around, and what I had planned, was simple. I just wanted to ask on her part why she was being like that? and give her my side. then figure out whats going on between us. she basically ended up telling me she’s so sorry, and that she felt dumb. someone had told her that I had some girl or girlfriend. And I guess rather then confronting me about it, she decided to just not talk to me and make me feel stupid. because she felt stupid, that she got played so good, and that she was in my bed laying there with me the night before. and thinking all bad about me, talking shit. just to find out that it wasn’t even true. the same person that told her, ended up telling her oh never mind, I was mistaken. so I gave her the same perspective I just gave you (reader) to give her my point of view. after that was dealt with, she apologized once again.Now I went on to asking her as straight out as I could what she wanted from me. I told her I like her, and that I want to know where shes at with everything. just to be direct. because I called her out on the fact that I felt like she didn’t know what she wanted and all this. Now I remember everything she said from this point. she said she wants to be with me, that she goes to school and works full time she wouldn’t be investing her time into something that doesn’t mean anything to her. Literally everything I didn’t think I would hear, but wanted to hear. And like I’ve said this whole time, I just don’t want my time wasted or anything so I rather you be direct. but she said she was on the same page. so I decided to see how the week went before I decided to still take her to that show, and ask her out. and it seemed like things flipped around. she was in 100% and was truly acting like someone who has feelings. so thursday night came around right before the show on friday. I decided I was going to go with it. she made me believe she was on the same page. so i told her we’re going. next day came, I was nervous the whole day. Felt like I was back in High school. I got all ready and prepared. I felt like it was a special day. It came the time to pick her up and I was just so anxious. she got in the car and for the first 20 mins of the car ride, I didn’t even really say much. so she kind of felt that something was weird about me and asked me, I just denied it. I wanted to wait until we were at the show to ask her, but it was just sitting on my tongue. so we were almost there, and I just hit her with it. I said “you know i’ve been sitting here this whole time trying to figure out a way to say it, but there is no certain way. I like you, I think it’s safe to say we have feelings for each other.” she nodded her head. “I want you to be my girlfriend” she kind of smirked nervously, and said okay…so I asked her “will you be my girlfriend?” and she lit up with joy and said yes! Now I just felt like I was on top of the world. so excited and she was too. We had a great night that night. I kissed her goodnight for the first time, as my girlfriend. immediately it felt like her persona changed with me. started calling me baby, and everything that comes along with being affectionate with someone you’re dating. so this just made me feel like I made the right decision by saying something to her rather than just letting it go. Now this was on Friday, this whole weekend was great. saturday she was with family so we didn’t see each other. but Sunday, was probably my favorite day that I spend with her. We didn’t have anything planned, so we just went to the mall and to get dinner. she bought couple things and we went to eat. But I mean the way she was acting with me, made me happy. It felt good to have that connection with someone again. the little things, her asking me to kiss her, her kissing my hand that shes holding as I’m driving. those are things that people do when they care, have feelings for someone. So I thought to myself the future looks bright. Now were caught up. that was Sunday. Monday comes along, and like I said because during the week our work schedules conflict we dont see each other just talk a bit through phone calls and text. but everything was still good. you know typical conversation between a gf/bf. tuesday same thing. nothing unusual happened. now yesterday was a different story. I woke up from a 12 hour shift at work, and wanted to talk to the person I like. I called her but no answer. I knew that she would be busy though, because she went somewhere for school. so I just waited for her call or message whatever. time passed throughout the day and nothing. but she was on instagram posting pictures. now even then I didn’t say anything. but I know I could feel that something was different. It was in my gut. this girl hasn’t talked to me all day when she usually talks to me throughout the day. and you know anybody who’s anybody talked to their significant other everyday right? if possible of course. I mean I don’t have to state that there’s certain circumstances that don’t allow that. but typically you want to talk to that person everyday. anyways, she still hadn’t said anything. Now I’m at work you know. the place where I want to stay focused and all. its a responsibility. and literally two hours into work after she hadn’t talked to me all day. she hits me with this. down below. what do you think? Idk what to say really. but I just feel dumb. I don’t think or didn’t think it was possible for someone to deliberately waste someone’s time like that or just act the whole time? or what happened? things were literally so good. I thought we were on the same page. so that’s why I wrote this really, to get it off my chest. I do feel better now. And maybe whoever reads this can relate and let me know that I’m not the only person this happens to? or some kind of input. whatever, either way I’m moving forward.